Morning Moaning and Groaning

August 25, 2007

Arghh. Woke up this morning feeling so happy. Tom and I started the day slowly, drinking coffee and talking in bed. It felt so nice. Soon, the all-too familiar pain started sinking into my lower back, hips, legs and booty, and in the middle of our conversation, tears just started pouring from my eyes. The pain was independent of what was going on– I wasn’t focusing on it, it has an agenda all its own. It’s embarrassing to be smiling and chatting, then crying simultaneously. Tom massaged me for a few minutes, and I began to feel a bit better. I made myself hop out of bed and begin the day. It seems to work best best to pretend that nothing unusual is going on, but in the background is the dull noise of pain and depression.

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